OSR Icy Clown Road ICR#02 compilation; originally only temporarily available winter solstice 2018 thru new year's day 2019
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-- tracks w/ Lilith Outcome = w/ Marlon Cherry (percussion), Ryan Power (bass), Derek Baron, Billy McShane & Kal Traver (flutes);
-- tracks w/ Martyr Group = w/ Stephe Cooper, Tom Csatari, Sam Lisabeth, Quentin Moore (guitars)
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Yuji Takahashi, from "the Life of the Composer," 1996:
To other people, his music is his own,
and he exists within his work.
Within him, there is music which has yet to be written.
He himself also comes close to believing this.
Without this belief, the life of the composer cannot be.
But the impulse to create cannot be deceived.
If other people hear his name in this sound,
what should he hear in it?
Even if we try to give his name to the song that sounds
within,
we cannot approach it through the work.
The skillfully placed net does not catch the music.
What remains as his own is only the act of creation.
The act of creation: why can we not say that it is not
the act of distancing oneself from music through music?
Unrequited thoughts compel the creation of the next work.
Other people call it maturation:
this trap, like a spider getting caught in a web of its
own making.
He himself probably comes close to believing this too.
This is love for music. This is the life of the composer.
Life gradually falls apart. The face and voice too are lost.
Memories also vanish, the name also vanishes.
The work cannot be eternal.
But even if no one is there, and nothing is left,
the dream of creation alone continues to dream,
floating like a seed.
This dream never knows consolation.