(untitled) from yujin13. (lake) by yujin13

should i be surprised?
back to this place i know too well.
i can't even bear to look at myself in the eye right now.
this is my home :
the same old song, sung in the dark inside my empty room.
just me.

and yes, no longer am i left to wonder.
and yet, i'm sitting here just left to wonder why.
the weight is lifted from my chest.
my arms and legs no longer stretch from east to west
by this device i built inside my head.

i am now free! but really? am i really? am i free?
when all i see are past mistakes that flash inside my mind so randomly?
a vivid picture painted by a mind that can't forget.
a constant question of who i'd be if we had never met.

so i move on ; separate from this empty mental state.
i turn away, opposite mistakes that i made yesterday
and the day before, and the day before
until i can't remember anymore
because that's just me.
and i'm all i'll ever be.

• Punk
• alternative
• emo
• hardcore
• indie
• pop punk
• Chula Vista