Future Me from Survival Pop by Worriers

Here I am future me, on the corner of 5th and Berkeley. Glorified canvas socks and this shredded jean jacket. The corners that I end up on by accident.

Between the leaves and sky I see negative space, when I followed some directions past your old place. Like a friend you can’t forgive but then forgot, your house is on Your Neighborhood’s Next Top Parking Lot.

When I leave you’ll never notice it. But I relive those years like phantom limbs. Your indecision, a lack of empathy. I shoulda left, I shoulda settled for lonely.

Every slow familiar soundtrack brings me here, to a ghost I haven’t spoken to in years. My nerves were slowly stretching out the sleeves of every sweater. Rekindling old habits, knowing better.

When I leave you’ll never notice it. But I relive those years like phantom limbs. Your indecision, a lack of empathy. I shoulda left, I shoulda settled for lonely.

Dark nostalgia and the tapes I haven’t played, since that deck broke in my old room in the house you never went to.

Here I am, future me.

• Punk
• feminist
• indie
• queer
• rock
• Brooklyn