Permanence from Passive Desire by Twelfty

Lying in the grass
Counting sunrays
Thinking bout my stupid future on a Sunday
Thinking bout my weight
Thinking bout my don't tell me
I'm trying so hard not to make this about me
Put a black heart if you want me to die
All this time feels like I can't see the sky
I'd jump off a bridge if you told me to live
Won't happen again
I won't let them win

I'm at the headphone party with the items in my room that always accumulate
I am the absent party so I'm wondering what you're doing at this time of day
Recently I found out that I'm really all the things that are outside of me
The rolling hills (rolling hills)
The winter breeze (winter breeze)
Piles of laundry
And the dust bunnies

Every piece of information I found about it makes me realize how it's all my fault
I have nothing else to blame
Cuz I made all of this up

Even though I know what it costs
I still wanted to be free
Even though I know what it costs
I wanted to fall back asleep
I wanted to fall back alseep
I've only ever wanted to fall back asleep

Eyes open
No blanket
I was hoping
You could change it

I always imagined it like a sort of like sillhouette of myself or maybe just like a drawing or like a stick figure of me like drifting away from the earth and I'm like reaching out for it

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