Social Anxiety by Tufawon

"When I feel unwelcome in social settings and want to leave and retreat to the places that make me feel comfortable. When being around too many people makes me feel uneasy, and the stability that my own solitude creates is the only thing that will bring me tranquility. This is all in my own mind, yet I still find myself escaping from the crowd. But after a while, this alone time starts to wear on me. The loneliness sinks in, and my yearning for community and being a part of my circle of loved ones grows. This is where I struggle to find that balance, but I'm progressing and learning ways to navigate it all."

Tracklist

1.	Social Anxiety	4:25

Lyrics

Social Anxiety

Sometimes I can’t tell if it’s better to get out of the house
Or just stay in…

My social anxiety
My social anxiety
Makes me want to head back home, yeah
My social anxiety
My social anxiety
Makes me want to head back home

My social anxiety
My social anxiety
Makes me want to head back home, yeah
My social anxiety
My social anxiety
Makes me want to head back home

When I’m around too many people yeah I start to lose control
I need to go home and refocus
Realign so I can realize that everything that
I’m burdened by is something I should priorities on healing
Alleviate the symptoms that I’m feeling
Create environments that allow me space to deal with
Process all of the external nonsense projections that get thrown at me
In a place of insecurity not knowing exactly
The root causes and what perpetuates it I’m hesitating
Because my heart lingers in such a messy state when
I don’t, get a little self care
And drink me some filtered water and question what’s out there
Read a book and meditate look at the stars and just breathe
Maybe take a little drive, sabbatical just me
Car keys in my hand the open road and the breeze
Giving myself enough room to stretch out it’s just me on my own

It’s just me on my own
It’s just me on my own
It’s just me on my own

Social anxiety
My social anxiety
Makes me want to head back home, yeah
My social anxiety
My social anxiety
Makes me want to head back home

My social anxiety
My social anxiety
Makes me want to head back home, yeah
My social anxiety
My social anxiety
Makes me want to head back home

There’s a balance that I yearn for, a balance that I need
I’m looking for understanding I’m looking for space to breathe
Finally getting my wishes I’m solo dolo as ever
I’m finally doing some writing and eating a bit better
Physical activities I’m getting are taking stress away
Fixing my sleep schedule I’m stretching resting and meditate
Cleaning my kitchen sweeping and mopping while doing loads of laundry
And folding all of the above as I focus on me
But at a point I notice I’m feeling kind of lonely
I don’t know if I’m tripping because my mind is roaming
Getting into some type of headspace
And thinking these wild thoughts like I’m feeling displaced in my own place
Missing those times we used to show face
Kept the jay up in the rotash’ at a slow pace
Miss going on dates and holding hands, face to face
Conversations that feel like they last for days ‘member ?

And laughing as we passed time together
And laughing as we passed time together
And laughing as we passed time together
I should get up out this damn house so my mind gets better ‘cause

My own mind devours me
My own mind devours me
When I’m all alone all alone, yeah
My own mind devours me
My own mind devours me
When I’m alone at home

My own mind devours me
My own mind devours me
When I’m all alone all alone, yeah
My own mind devours me
My own mind devours me
When I’m alone at home

What I’ve learned is that it’s important to find that balance
Overcome your fears, and give yourself that time and that space
And for me not overdoing it is important
It’s important for my own mental health

Credits

released January 22, 2021
Written and performed by Tufawon
Produced by Grant4ore and Andre Mariette
Mixed and mastered by Andre Mariette

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