Idols by Trash Diva

_IDOLS_

Built a shrine to my ex-lovers
I make idols of mistakes
Sinking deeper in a pit and
Drowning in a sea of snakes

There’s a science to my hurt
Mixing in the guilt and shame
Even when I close my eyes
I only dream about the pain

Paying penance for my wrongs
Does it matter I was lonely?
Principal of parsimony
I am my own worst enemy

Weighed and measured
Graded: “wanting”
Failing all the fucking time
Just another screaming banshee
You’ll never take what’s mine
We’re drowning in a sea
(Nobody’s fine)

Failing to diffuse the bomb
It always blows up in my face
Happiness is running from me
I’m so tired of the chase

Get dirty
This world owes you nothing
But dirt
and to dirt we all return
I fall and grin with mud on my jeans

Sweating bullets
I came without a gun
Shots fired
I’m bleeding for no one
Teeth gnashing
Why can I never fall sleep
I never sleep
I never sleep
I never sleep
I never sleep!

• Punk
• baltimore
• hardcore
• hardcore punk
• Baltimore