Childhood Trauma from New Organ by Toxikk Deception

No innocence
No light
They all told me their fucking lies

2 doses a day
to subside the pain
Are the side effects
worth the help you'll gain?

They never told me
their house is a game
All of these chemicals
will ROT my brain

3 months 2 hours in
I can hear my thoughts
penetrating from within
My eyes are rolling
to the back of my skull
My jaw is locked
and my joints are numb

PLEASE HELP ME
JUST HELP ME
I'm not crazy, these symptoms are real
Why wont my family save me
It looks like I've no future

I FEEL DEAD TO THE WORLD
(to the world)

In horror I watch
as I chew my fingernail
off the nailbed
Theres something wrong
with the chemicals they administered
to my head

I went to the hospital
and the doctors wont
tell me anything
I asked for a remedy
but they didn't care
like they didn't see

"Come back again one day when you're not faking your misery."

Another year passes
Another year wasted
Another year trapped
in this fucking hole

Tranquilized,
labotomized,
silenced and sedated

One day you'll see
how much they damaged me
4 years in the bin
all for childhood sin

The sun is black
The sky is white
I feel there's nothing left to life
It's all done
It's all over
The storm has passed
The night is colder

THERE IS NO JOY
THERE IS NO PAIN
THERE IS NO URGE
TO FEEL AGAIN

There is no joy, there is no pain. I have no urge to feel again, to feel again.

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