Vision from Opiri by gHyp:See & The Wichts

Vision:

Walking down a wide solitary road
alone with the heartbeat bumping
through white buds to the electronic
mainframe of my phone.
The Use is for me to tell you
I saw us alone and unforgiven.
Caught in the grips of the monster
stumbling sick with blurred out vision
we were sitting on opposite banks
of the same dirty river completely
unaware that the other one existed.

You were surrounded by the tools of oblivion
oblivious to me and the sins I was committing
in the hopes to find freedom from the insidious
decisions that had me imprisoned.
The river lined with dirty needles
and dead fish that once were swimming
to the end of the line you cast out
and drew in in an attempt to begin
to forget the pain as it singed off
any last remnants of the illusion of security.

This is a dirty dream
reminiscent of the Lower East Side’s dirty scenes
caught in a dungeon you knew not of me
as I continued to bleed out on bathroom floors
all over the Zoo-York came and
put a cork in my brain containing
the disturbing realizations that caused
me to remain insane.
I held on to the only name
that could stave the pain
like a slave I refrained
from challenging my master,
my heroine.
My life seemed to all
to be such a disaster
as I laid out paranoid and plastered
across bathroom stalls with your name
engrained in black ink
I had no idea what would become
of the pain until today.


As I walked home alone
along that wide solitary road
to my home in New Jersey where
I roamed long enough to find you.
We were side by side and never knew.
Across a dirty strung out river we waited
like forgotten mental patients in a psych ward
we wasted days away
breaking into shame
to stay a part of the game yet
always knowing we were different.
This purgatory delivered us to a life
that at times still is bitter like the acid rain
but this vision showed me the light:
we are finally forgiven.

And when it hit, I started to cry
I broke down on the side of that wide solitary road
as the electronic metal boxes continued to go past
I sat in the sun and I knew in that moment
it was all because:

Nothing lasts forever
This is pain and this is pleasure
This moment is only now,
only now and only forever.
Love always and forever,
your only once and only never.

• Experimental
• Horrorpunk
• fromage
• horror jazz
• postapocalyptic
• uneasy listening
• New Brunswick