COMPLICATEDCONVERSATIONS by The Unmaker

Album version.

This is a new take on a song I made in 2008 that is on the album (on this website near the bottom) AGETEST. Initially this song was to convey a romantic spat. In the previous version the song's lyrics are simple, "These are complicated conversations, and nobody wants to be talking anymore."

The base of this entire new album is piano pieces with one goal in mind beyond each tracks own philosophy. That is simply, highlighting conversation that is... difficult to have, speak, hear, endure, understand and want. But through engaging you hear new things, think new things, become new things because while difficult conversations aren't all that pleasant, in enduring them you better your understanding of yourself, the other person and conversation, empathy and all that good stuff.

So, this new version, while not my personal lead for the album... it essentially in and of itself is the whole album in intent, style and meaning. This is a complicated conversation and nobody wants to have it. The left hand is trying to find the right phrase, but all the available words... aren't necessarily unpleasant but the odd scale I am playing in gives an air of something foreign from what you're used to. it doesn't say HAPPY or SAD immediately. So you have to look at the context (voicing and playing style), but both hands seem unsure, then positive of the message, then completely loosing it... to remembering part of it and screaming a fragment of something they said earlier. Keeping away from chords more through the song and also mostly only playing cluster chords when I do signifies just how unpleasant the core of the conversation is for both people (hands). So you get conversation that weaves in and out of calm, almost agreeing construct that still feels foreign to loud obscene barking of fragments of the real message trying to be conveyed... and there is less of a resolve than a giving up and agreeing this conversation is complicated. though because each hand is ultimately playing in the same scale, both parties are still attempting to have the conversation.

I hope you enjoy this track, its taken a lot of shapes over the years and helped me understand myself and what I feel and who I am and can be musically when I allow myself to be more passionate about the message and meaning than the numbers and theory of music and trying too hard to convey something ugly in a mask for easier audience consumption.

I was born in the air duct system of an old elementary school in Homer Ohio.

more music by me:
www.oldbabybabybaby.bandcamp.com