Divergent from SINcerely by The Real J.Liles

•Verse 1-

All of these words are stuck in my head/

can't seem to get em to come through this pen/

I scream and I cry and I yell at the sky and I wonder why God didn't leave me for dead/

See I was born with a noose on my neck/

Umbilical cord it chocked me to death/

I wasn't breathing no I wasn't screaming and I was so blue that you wouldn't believe it/

Look- fast forward to when I was a teen with a heart full of love and head full of dreams/

Living it up if ya know what I mean but the enemy plots and ya know that he schemes/

First he went for my family- when he split us up and that damaged me/

Sent me str8 into a panic see but I would bury that never let you see/

How bad it really messed me up on the inside I was deeply cut/

On the outside I would wear a smile keep it rugged tho my facade was tough/

Soon to follow was the drinkin and drugs- killing the pain and then keeping it numb/

Dyin' in vain but livin' for blood- bangin' the gang it was never enough/

Everything that I did to- forget the pain that I lived through/

Never seem to do anything but come full circle like a spliff do/

Rollin' it up and then pass it around-lay on my back as I look at the clouds/

Hopin' and dreamin' and sayin' aloud God if you're up there why don't you come down/

I need you Lord to come show me how- I'm sposed to cope with what I'm chokin' down/

Hopeless broken I've spoken loud- but you don't seem to be home right now/

Guess I'll come back but I'd run back to vices yea shoulda known that/

Weak in need of a friend indeed but I'd push away that ones that plead/

•Verse 2-

I often wonder what it'd be like to laugh again/

Because it's back again depression keeps attackin' man/

I'm in hell again often off in my cell again inside my head//

Trying with all it might to pry the bars again//

We're very rarely aware of the overpowering morality//

till we come face to face with our mortality//

Imagine the_surprise_ when I open up_ my eyes_//

and realize that real lies are what's surrounding me//

These voices just keep on talkin'//

and tellin' me that I'm hammerin' nails into my own coffin//

I've lost it and I got no intent on seekin' to find//

I been outta my mind way too long to go back inside//

And plus the doors locked- I ain't never seen that key//

Besides I'm better on the outside where I can be free//

Cause when I'm in there I been scared and definitely//

Afraid that I won't make it out again if I'm in too deep//

So I just- keep on hopin'and prayin' for regulation//

Debatin' on whether I should just face it or be complacent//

I'm too impatient to wait and just hope for the best//

I may just be holdin' my breath- but I'd just be chokin'to death//

Abrasions are on my neck ya//

•Verse 3-

I really needed to get this off my chest and address/

All this stress that's progressively increased like a press/

And you best believe, I give the best of me/

To this muzik and I use it as a stress relief/

So when I get to wanderin' off, the beaten path/

Don't just assume I must be lost without even givin'a chance/

I'm very firm in my stance and I'm planted in good soil/

Roots have grown deep to The Son I remain loyal/

But- don't you think that I'm perfect in any way/

I don't deserve it never earned it I'm sinful in all ways/

I'm deservin' of unnervin' incredibly harsh pain/

But I'm worth it as His servant divergent in my faith/

Yeeaa- we are not alike and that is not a problem/

Fam, if it is for you then only you can solve it/

Lamb, that is what He was now He's a Lion/

Damned, that is what I'll be if I deny Him/

Listen I ain't even dismissin' the fact that I'm a sinner/

Hardened and remarkably awful temper and plus I'm bitter/

I'm just pointin' out an alternative mas anointed route/

Wherein doubt you can move mountains by faith that you're endowed with/

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