Runaway Train from Inheritance by terrapin

- written from Stan’s perspective, twenty years after his father’s death, “Runaway Train” tells the story of his spiral into addiction and violence. Set in 2005.



And I leave a note on the table.
Unreadable with a smudge of ink.
And I stay in the bar til it’s closing,
Did I give you enough time to think?
And the darkness is unravelling,
Got a monster that I need to feed.
You say I’m irresponsible and lazy,
I promise, I’m keeping it on a tight lead.

And you shout at me on the 21st,
Say good grief, you forgot again.
Our anniversary, shit, I knew it was coming up,
You say I’m not ready for a girlfriend.
So I disappear into the night,
Go out drinking, smoking and snorting lines.
Getting rowdy, I get into a fight,
Come home with blood on my hands,
Which are gripped around a knife.

I’m sinking fast, got no anchor, got no future,
Life’s got my head in a deadlock and I’m choking blood,
I can’t move forward but I know I should,
I slide sideways, I’m a runaway train, argh…

And I see you again the following year.
When I see my face, yours is painted in fear.
And a little shock at what I’ve become.
Drunk and dirty and inescapably numb.
And you cross the street as quick as you can.
And I shout over the traffic jam.
Try to rush between the stalling cars.
But I trip and fall and break the glass.

I’m sinking fast, got no anchor, got no future,
Life’s got my head in a deadlock and I’m choking blood,
I can’t move forward but I know I should,
I slide sideways, I’m a runaway train...

I’ve got to change, when I look in the mirror,
I cry, eyes wide, fuck my life, I’m my father,
And the violence is written in my scars,
Metaphysical contagion, caught in a strange addiction.
I feel the heat of the water as I step into
The shower, feel its cleansing power
And I shiver, withdrawal got me breaking out in sweats,
But I’m gonna get better,
Yeah I'm gonna get better,
yeah I’m gonna get_

Drunk, again.
I slide sideways, I’m a runaway train.
I slide sideways, I’m a runaway train.

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• United Kingdom