Lost Dreams by Spherehawk

The drive had been long. I crept through the mountains of Shenandoah, VA stopping at scenes along the way.

Heartbroken and empty-eyed, I had spent the better part of the day wandering around Virginia looking for historic places - old battlefields. Places commemorated on plaques.

I had gone off the grid mentally - I was reeling from a failed relationship, from my anxieties, and from attachments within myself that I couldn't shake. I felt unrecognizable, dissociated from myself.

I instinctively found myself seeking out ground where blood was shed - these weird old rural battlefields where civil war soldiers died once - Feeling as though I was collecting long lost haunts, or I were a reincarnated man, retracing the steps of several lifetimes ago.

I got a hotel room - I knew I had come to visit Skyline Drive, but that could be tomorrow. I brought my guitar, my microphone, a small piano keyboard, my laptop and my recorder box.

That night I blasted out my brain with a few grams of mushrooms and for the next 7 hours, I alternated between sobbing, laying in the shower, and recording tracks on my laptop. I, messily, recorded the rough outlines of these tracks, and spent the later hours of the night listening to my loops and writing lyrics.

The next day, I drove Skyline Drive, and took in many panoramic views. I felt relieved to feel so small - So insignificant - And to see that my emotions, my desires, could flow into and out of me like a river.

The rest of the second night, I recorded vocals and put the 'finishing touches' on my songs. Like my other Spherehawk projects, this album was birthed quickly and recklessly, with little time for cleanliness and second-guessing.

Out of the tunes that emerged, I was able to recall within myself the light I felt I had lost. Amidst chaotic times, circumstances beyond our control, or great sadness, it is easy to forget our true power. I wish for this to uplift you and help you to remember the light if you have forgotten or lost it. All is not lost.

<3

-treb

Trevor Brown

This is Tevor's "Alter ego" music project

Bedroom indie psych rock? I guess???

est 12/19/2019