dziente by sonja berlin-jones

This is another one that quotes a bit of a Bela Tarr film - The Outsider. It was meant to be very like Palinka - the best thing I've done so far on Bandcamp - I do actually recommend it, it's pretty good - a bit like a gloomy Hungarian version of Pete Namlook's Silence 1.

But whenever I try to make something that sounds like a thing in my head it always turns out total crap. This is what happened here - though it's not THAT bad. It took ages to make. About half an hour. That is always a bad sign.

It's uploading now and I'm getting a headache just thinking about it - this is a new headache on top of the headache I got when I was making it. How we suffer for our art. But anyone listening to this will probably suffer even more. I'm being too hard on myself. Compared to most of the crap everywhere, it's not so awful.

But there's too much of everything. And the only way to change it is to keep on making things worse and worse until the whole wrongness collapses. One day people will just make music for themselves. It's almost happening now.

nothing is distorted, nothing is wrong