Mea Culpa from Demo 2009 by Somnia

these songs only get written when i am physically, mentally and emotionally drained. when nothing i do makes me feel better and something inside is begging to get out.

i used to live with a woman that i had been friends with since the 7th grade. we finally started a relationship in our late 20's after years of having a crush on each other. she was my best friend for many years and i was reluctant to enter a relationship with her because i thought it would probably blow up in our faces and i would never be able to be friends with her again. in the end, i was right. contrary to popular belief, i hate being right.

i get so tired of being abandoned. sometimes it seems like everyone throws me away. it's made me very untrusting of most people and i tend to be a loner. i isolate because i am too sensitive and i can't take it when people turn out to have used me and when they get what they want they throw me away.

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