Carpet Bugs from stillborn by soft idiot

i never wanted to stay in bed all day
thinking of the plans i made and how they all fell away
the way that i think of myself is the way that others think of me
and hanging out with my friends doesn't feel like where i should be

and calming down becomes of little possibility
fleeing social situations it always feels like i should leave
all these circles crashing down i wanna lose what i had found
endlessness won't add up to what i thought

i find myself wishing i could remember fewer of my nights
when they all feel the same slowly slipping by
outside at night i don't ever wanna go home
i don't wanna feel no more love i don't wanna be alone

and calming down is impossible
and i am laying on my floor
waiting for the carpet bugs
to come alive and eat me up
and i will crawl between the cracks
of sidewalk that the plants grow out
and i will die just i lived
covered in dirt beneath the ground

walking outside at night
my brother and his lonely life
hanging up overhead
i heard every word he said

• Alternative
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• Philadelphia