Midnight Words from Open Doors by Siraj

It’s late again
Window’s fogged from breathing
I don’t know why I’m saying this
But I need you to hear it
I bought milk today at ten past nine
The cashier smiled said you look tired
I said yeah I don’t sleep much
Not since you left and took my routine
I keep your hoodie in my closet
I know I should let it go
But it still smells like your perfume
And I’m weak when it comes to that
I never say what I feel
I just nod and walk away
But tonight something breaks
And I can’t hold it in
So I tell you all my fears
The ones I hide behind small talk
I say I’m scared I’ll never love again
That I fake my laugh too long
I whisper I still check your name
When silence gets too loud
These midnight words are all I have
To show you how I’m lost
Last week I saw us in a dream
We were walking by the pier
You asked if I was doing fine
I lied and said yeah I’m great
I woke up and stared at the ceiling
Texted an old friend just to talk
But I deleted it before sending
Cause what if they tell you I called
I never say what I feel
Not even to myself
But with you the walls drop
And I can finally breathe
So I tell you all my fears
The ones I hide behind small talk
I say I’m scared I’ll never love again
That I fake my laugh too long
I whisper I still check your name
When silence gets too loud
These midnight words are all I have
To show you how I’m lost
You don’t answer
You just listen
And for once I don’t need a fix
No advice no solutions
Just someone who stays
Even when I’m breaking
Even when I’m just a mess
So I tell you all my fears
The ones I hide behind small talk
I say I’m scared I’ll never love again
That I fake my laugh too long
I whisper I still check your name
When silence gets too loud
These midnight words are all I have
To show you how I’m lost
The sun will rise in two hours
The moment will fade
But I’ll remember
You let me speak
And didn’t run away

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