oh bother another reminder that good noise is harder to make than I usually think - this one's not good - but I haven't done a good one for ages - I would rather play my acoustic gtr very slowly but everything is in this room, everything seems to be on this table, god knows where the mic is or the guitar - there is only room to do something like this, to make my life feel less wasted, more "creative" - though god knows what kind of "creative" this ranks as - let me reassure my future self, the only possible visitor here, that this is a constantly changing piece of harsh noise, not a loop, that is it easily deleted, that it came at a time when it felt easier and better to make a bad album myself than to find a good album by someone else.