Deciduous Love from Diamond Fall by Sephine Llo
Deciduous Love is an ode of gratitude to our son. Had I not been pregnant when my husband Robbie died, I truly believe I wouldn't be here.
The lyrics also talk about the pride I felt for the unfaltering love, care and support I gave to Robbie throughout his 2 years of grueling cancer treatments, as well as in his last weeks. I never left his side, and I insisted on being one of the coffin pallbearers, with our little seed in my womb keeping me going.
The recurring lyric "you saved me" is something Robbie said to me once in tears, because though his body was succumbing to the cancer, he felt he had found such true happiness, that our love and the promise of our child meant that we had in our own way won the war with the disease.
Tracklist
| 7. | Deciduous Love | 9:24 |
Lyrics
You Saved Me.
Words devoid of comfort, hands no longer warm.
Devotion so sweet, a pain so complete.
Time, it drags me forwards with a smile to perform.
Held hostage by grief, too heavy to weep.
But this was no deciduous love.
This was no deciduous love.
You saved me.
There were no letters in the drawer, your lyrics poignant and sore.
You grow old in a handful of days, to live is the hardest display.
But this was no deciduous love.
This was no deciduous love.
If it wasn’t for your babe, I would have died of a broken heart.
And if it wasn’t for your child, I would have followed you into the dark.
And if it wasn’t for your evergreen seed,
when sudden tears roused us from sleep,
if I had not the memory of when you cried and said:
“You saved me”.
This was no deciduous love.
If it wasn’t for you, babe, I would have died of a broken heart.
If it wasn’t for you, child, I would have followed him into the dark.
And if it wasn’t for the ultimate pride, to have carried him when he died,
if I had not your life to grow inside, I would not be alive.
You saved me.
Little baby…
Little angel…
Little baby, I hear you, I hear you as you swing by the light of the moon.
Little sweetheart, I’m racing to heal your wounds.
Little angel, this can’t be your cadence.
It’s imperfect, how brutal the day.
Little baby, is it cold where you run and play?
Boy, where I hold you alone, it’s the easy way out.
It’s cold, I’m alone, I’m a call the easy way down.
Credits
Written and performed by Sephine Llo, sampling Autumn Chorus.
Bass guitar by Julian Eccleston.
