warm from faking awake by living hikikomori route

faking awake
feeling like i have spent my life
locked away from seemingly minuscule doses of happiness
there's questions to be answered on the bathroom wall
"are you happy?"
"are you sad?"
"do you know that jennifer long is fucking every single person in the school? all you have to do is give her a cigarette and she'll get on her knees and embarrass you and swallow you whole!"

i want to know what damaged part of my brain makes me so ignorant to the fact that there are people who don't know what to do with me
and i don't want to stay up late watching scary movies, i want to stay up late and find out where to get cheap bullets to give myself a lobotomy!

• Experimental
• dysphoria
• emo???
• noise pop
• queer
• ventcore
• Martinez