OPENING from DIS-ASSOCIATION by Renée Radix

this track channels a lot of fear of the future, for me and my community, with the political situation getting worse and worse. that and resolve to stand up against it and fight together until we can’t, even if that's a super messy process.

the intro features samples of the train by my house, a powerful, bone-shaking entity that at times feels like my muse, and at times my tormentor (e.g. when i'm lying awake at 2am and can feel it shake my bed). the bell sample is from a tiny bell i found when i lived at the commune that i use for rituals. field recordings are my own. thanks to ell for letting me sample your piano for this.

Renée (she/her) is an electroacoustic musician currently based in Portland, Oregon. Her solo music consists of densely layered woodwinds and electronics, engaging with themes such as living with trauma, dissociation and the impact of the world on the transfeminine body. She draws inspiration from stories of trans resistance, grief rituals, free jazz, the natural world, and industrial machinery.