generic from FOUR'S COMPANY by precious little life

the silence is killing me
maybe i should talk to someone
but most of my friends are dead and gone
the ones alive text me every now and then
but my mental illness consumes me
back in 2011 when i believed in god, the church said that i was damned
maybe i shouldve prayed more
or i maybe i shouldve let my body hang from the chapel

i can finally make this prediction
i might not be as cut out for this as it seems
everybody is looking at me, looking at me,
everybody is (oh my god!)
this doesnt feel the same as before
no texts no calls no plans for the future
everybody’s trying to talk to me, talk to me,
but no one’s listening (oh my god!)

they said if i sold my soul to heaven
then i would finally be free
but id be dead before im happy
id be dead before im pure
and i can feel the eyes of the departed look down and shake their heads at me
why be dead before im happy
fuck why be happy at all
even still, i feel them watching
consuming my work, my life, my thoughts and i
feel eaten inside that i could never believe just like them
but why live this lie any longer
why force myself to believe in anyone but me
you say “ill be dead before im happy”
man, all of you are so fucking generic
(ill be dead before im happy
ill be dead before im pure) x4

and as we discussed before
i might not be as cut out for this as it seems
everybody is looking at me, looking at me,
everybody is (oh my god!)
this doesnt feel the same as before
no texts no calls no plans for the future
everybody’s trying to talk to me, talk to me,
but no one’s listening (oh my god!)

the silence is killing me
maybe i should go to sleep

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