fourteen from still by nouns

"
I was raped at fourteen
and I'm not using this as another tragedy to make my art more appealing
or to make you pity me
and bring you closer to
"understanding" me
but instead,
as an encouragement
for those that have faced any sort of trauma,
no matter how small
--don't be afraid to open it into discussion.

but before you do,
analyze your feelings
regarding the past.

If you bring it up

what do you want people to see?
do you want them
to see a
"victim"
?

because
you should never
ever
want to be the victim

but instead,
the hero

show "them"
that you've been through
some
sort
of
s h i t

and that you
don't need Anyone's
pity

because you've
overcome
that heartache

and you're a good person
you're the hero
no matter how bad
things have been

show "them"
that you're strong
and that you can
overcome
more adversity
and you can
come out
a
role model

and show
t h e m
that you're truly proud with the person you've become

but first you must work
and it's
a difficult job
but you must try your hardest
to fill the holes in your heart
with nothing but
your
self

and
use that
pain
that you
have
in your heart
as a tool

not so that
people may understand you
but so that
you may understand people

use this
to help the world
one person
at a time
and know
you're no longer
the victim
instead
you're
the
victor
"

— Olivia

• Arkansas
• Experimental
• ambient
• art punk
• experimental rock
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• post-hardcore
• spoken word
• Little Rock