trauma by neither

i spent a week at McLean hospital in Belmont, MA this august. the unit i was in was mostly for women with complex PTSD. they have a piano there and i tried to play it every day. i ended up improvising and recording more than 50 songs. technically, you're not allowed to make any sound recordings there for privacy reasons so i kept them secret until i discharged. i thought it would be nice to anthologize them, so here we are.

i'm releasing these under the name "neither" because i doubt i'll ever play most of these at a visibilities gig, but who knows.

Tracklist

1.	and not for long	2:32

2.	changing	0:27

3.	too much	0:46

4.	a jeremiad	3:59

5.	going to go insane	0:39

6.	men	1:18

7.	what do i call you?	1:06

8.	death is real (and so is life)	0:59

9.	it/self	2:16

10.	pathetic prophetic	1:19

11.	blade of grass	4:44

12.	ok, gay, fat	1:42

13.	i know you are alone	3:13

14.	dissociation	2:34

15.	my heart is an engine	2:02

16.	i'm not scared	0:27

17.	i am revenge	3:06

18.	routine	1:16

19.	ding, ding, ding, ding (ding ding ding ding ding)	2:15

20.	crying dehydrates you	1:43

21.	trauma	1:57

22.	you do not have to finish the task, but you are not free to give it up	3:50

23.	meds	1:31