Stranger from Stranger Songs by My Fictions

Weighed down by the burden of memory
Cursed forever by the act of remember that I’ll carry this pain forever
Because I was meant to
Because I’m disgusted by what I left you to rot to

And I can’t help but reflect on loss and love and what I can’t correct
Or accept
Or neglect
I guess

You asked me once where the fuck I was going
A paraphrase
But I remember my reply because I was silence
I stood past you, fixed on the floor

I couldn’t watch you cry
Because I could never stay in this place
I’m too attached to leaving someday
And looking back just to remember what it’s like to have something

Is this the cost of disappearing?
I’m never satisfied with what I have left
Only holding what could never be held
Placing blame on everything but myself

So here’s a toast to losing direction and always moving
Just not very far
I damn myself for failing to love you
Because damning’s all I have anymore

But I’ll accept the blame now
You know I love my mistakes
They’re the only way I feel anything

This is the cost of disappearing
This is the weight of neglect
This is the road no one knows how to travel
The beaten trail of a million missteps

These are stranger songs because I don’t know who I am
A bubble burst from the bliss of ignorance
Growing older suck with the same questions
Why can’t I move on?
What have I learned?

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