My Grudge from Crafty Compilations by Miss Kari
A song about self-loathe. I used to be this way but after five months of recovery from self-harm and anorexia, I’ve learned my strengths.
Tracklist
| 7. | My Grudge | 4:07 |
Lyrics
My Grudge
©️ 2022 Karianne Gabaldon
(Verse 1)
I have to leave the blinds sealed shut because I choose defeat
Knowing that I’ll never rest until I can rest in peace
Doing damage on my skin and all of my organs
Keeping all my sins at bay just so I’ll sin again
There’s a shout-out in my tears that go out to the ones I’ve hurt
There’s a bleeding in myself that won’t stop ‘til I’m in the dirt
I am one with the sky because I hate myself to death
There’s no reason left to cry because I have no tears left
(Chorus)
My grudge is me
I am my enemy
I am a murderer
Haven’t you heard
I’m guilty
My grudge is bad
I’ll take all I’ve ever had
Just so I’ll maybe die
Give it a try
Be free
(Verse 2)
Oh Karianne what have you done
You’ve made a mess with your own problems
It’s hard to say with a straight face that I don’t hate on anyone
I have a sick way of wishing you to the grave
So I guess it’s true, I do hate
You’re a sick, twisted, vile, sad excuse who deserves to end her fate
Am I bitch for just wanting you to achieve your dream
Or a monster for allowing you to rip apart your seams
I’m the evil, nasty side of you that haunts you in your sleep
So stop the victim act ‘cause we’re past that, take this everlasting leap.
(Chorus)
My grudge is me
I am my enemy
I am a murderer
Haven’t you heard
I’m guilty
My grudge is bad
I’ll take all I’ve ever had
Just so I’ll maybe die
Give it a try
Be free
(Bridge)
And my heart cries when I see you here alone
In reality I just want to get you home
With Jesus Christ, I know you two will meet
So am I really that damn bad, at least I give you something to eat
And your pain you bear will never go away
So just get used to it and let yourself be wasted away
Your hollow flesh will soon be gone someday
(End Chorus)
My grudge is me
I am my enemy
I am a murderer
Haven’t you heard
I’m guilty
My grudge is bad
I’ll take all I’ve ever had
Just so I’ll maybe die
Give it a try
Be free
Credits
License
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