moody from post limerence by lotus face

...safer in the water
holding my breath longer but still gasping for air

wait
it's just a part of me telling me something i don't want to hear
"you've been here before and you should know that it gets easier"
but i don't

(something to cut the tension
something i oughta mention
i love her attention but i'm not sure if i wanna know-

-the same old storm is coming
i see it on the horizon
i see it in the air but i'm too scared to let it go

"i don't.
it's never really thriving if you're just stuck surviving and waiting for perfect timing
holding it in won't help you grow.
no, it's not a waste of time when you're learning"

and i'm learning so much, alright?

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