Lights Out from Prelude by KINGS LONE
Introduction to Prelude.
I wrote about my own thoughts of loneliness to record for this track. The talking in the background is a reading of a diary entry of mine from May 2025, when I was going through an awful period in my mental health.
I sampled audio from 'I've Been Here a Thousand Times and Back Again' and 'Melancholy Lullaby' for the instrumental of this song, pitched them down, and added reverb. I also put Melancholy Lullaby in reverse.
Tracklist
| 1. | Lights Out | 1:42 |
Lyrics
I don't know where to go from here
I'm so confused
This stage of my life feels so liminal
And the only anchor I have to reality is you
I know that you have your own things to worry about,
And I know it'll all turn out fine in the end, but
Everyday I worry that I'm not good enough for you, but
I'll keep trying
I'll find you in the morning sun,
And when the night is new, I'll be looking at the moon,
But I'll be seeing you
(You know, it’s so telling that I know so many people and I’m still the loneliest girl in the world.
But if I killed myself it’s not like nobody would notice. I think if I killed myself everyone I know would cheer. God, I deserve to kill myself so bad.
Despite everything, I still feel like a ghost in this world so what more should I do than die. I’m so tired of crying. I feel invisible, and it’s like, nobody truly understands me. Nobody KNOWS me, not like they think that they do. It’s always, like, oh it’s the surface level bare minimum bullshit but no one understands how much pain I’m in every day of my life. It’s not worth living, I just push everyone away when they get too close.
I don’t have anybody I trust enough to talk to or to depend on but myself and that’s just so awesome, isn’t it. I’m so tired of offering myself comfort when at this point it’s all I do when I’m awake.)
