Dust (Single) by Jon Hadley

Though I told myself
I could go home again
I was wrong

The purest parts of who I am
Are covered in dust
On the walls

I never really expected her to truly understand why this affects me so badly.
Why walking into this house absolutely guts me, but it's because its a temple
to rot. Where I used to have a life. I don't think it's that much to understand.

All this time I spend awake
It's more than I can take
Leave all my stitches bleeding
Cut me while I'm awake
Cut me while I'm awake
All this dust that I'm breathing
Eats away at me
It eats away at me

Some of the things I hold dearest in this life I can't touch, because they're contaminated...
They're lost, in the dust, in the rot... There's not a damn thing I can do about it because
I'm not enough to push all of that back...

Guess what else is lost in the rot??? Me. I'm lost in the rot... in the dust.
I had to write a eulogy to my own damn childhood.

All this time I spend awake
It's more than I can take
Leave all my stitches bleeding
Cut me while I'm awake
Cut me while I'm awake
All this dust that I'm breathing
Eats away at me
It eats away at me

I get it... I get it a lot better than you think I do...
Dad left and instead of figuring out who you were, without him...
You started to fill that void with stuff...

You could have filled it with me... With people.

I guess I just wasn't all that important...

I'll always be Abrasive though.

All this time I spend awake
It's more than I can take
Leave all my stitches bleeding
Cut me while I'm awake
Cut me while I'm awake
All this dust that I'm breathing
Eats away at me
It eats away at me

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