happy from amends by Jai Mohan

(i'm sad in the morning, i'm sad at night
i'm sad in the evening when i get home and i turn on the lights
i'm sad in the winter, i'm sad in the fall
i'm sad in the summer, doesn't that just say it all?)

i was so sad
yeah i went mad
it was so bad
but it's over now
this isn't a vent
everything ends
i'm still sad
but i got friends now
it was so rough
i was never enough
everything sucked
but i lived somehow
still remember
but it's getting better
i'm still sad
but i'm happy now

(now, now) i'm still sad but i'm happy now
(now, now) i was sad but i'm happy now

all of my lows
outweighed my highs
the places i'd go
before the sunrise
all of my moods
all of my drama
i was so caught up in my childhood trauma
all the bad sex with all of my exes
all of the ways that my body goes wrong
still remember
but now i'm borderline level
gonna make this one a happy song

(now, now) gonna make my lovers sing along
(now, now) that scared little loner's long past gone
for once in my life i can carry on
been waiting for so very long

i've been waiting for a while
i'm still sad sometimes but now i remember how to smile

these are victories because
i'm sad but i'm not as sad as i was

• Alternative
• classical crossover
• indie pop
• queer
• singer-songwriter
• vocal
• New York