Double from YAWN by Jacob Earl

Fifteen years ago
I made a decision
Like any other before
There was no wishing

Just a conscious effort
To be a good man
Only one of those I carried forward
I do what I can

Well it's not good enough
And it never was
Just a lot of fluff
And no reason, just because

The trail ran cold
When you severed all ties
With friends new and old
Who had told little lies

Who knows if you get to lead a double life
Who knows if you get to lead a double life

I'm a peacock
With my plumes gone grey
A flightless bird walking
Past my heyday

A kind word that hits you
Right in the gut
When everything you knew
Is flipped downside up

Who knows if you get to lead a double life
Who knows if you get to lead a double life

Shocking I know
That I forgot all the reasons
You finally let go
Of the memories that displeased you

And if you threw out
The baby with the dirty water
Maybe you knew about
The hurting for longer

• Experimental
• depressionwave
• folktronica
• glitch hop
• sadcore
• singer-songwriter
• Mississippi Mills