giving tree by human confetti

it was like nothing i’d ever seen
the eyes that haunt me 

look like thawing earth in early spring

an offering, something promising

your love was sown in subtle rows

not easily seen, and god knows

that’s just too many lines to read between

when they’ve lost all leaves and limbs

and there’s only love left to give

will you take it?
(or would you let it go to seed?)

not many branches to begin with

and the only fruit they bear

barely 
made a difference
when you were hungry
(you just let it go to seed)


so go on tending your grove
your grove of giving trees


“you’d have rotted there if not for me

building with your branches
i gave you immortality”

you’ve got some nerve to say that to me

use our limbs to lay foundations

for structures in your name

but without our bones
i don't think they'd stand up the same

when we've lost our leaves and limbs
and there's only love left to give
would you take it?
(would you let it go to seed?)
didn't have many branches to begin with
and the only fruit we bare
barely makes a difference
'cause you're always hungry

the table is long, but your reach grows
with each new row of giving trees
-
i know there's not much left of me
but my roots run deep
they keep me alive
and really, that's all i need

it was my mistake
i broke when i was trying to bend
loving you was a test, and i failed it
again, and again

i could've never made you happy

(again and again)

i would've never made you happy

(again and again)

i could've never made you happy
(again and again)

i would’ve never made you happy

(again and again)

now all the branches are gone
what's left to do but move on?
seein' as i'm no good to you anymore
not you, or anyone else
i'm not even good to myself
cause i'm afraid that i don't deserve it
and that deep down
i am not a good person

but i'm thankful for all you helped me through
even if you didn't do it for me
even if you did it for you

• Alternative
• damp
• emo
• florida
• nostalgic
• queer
• Sarasota