Stigmata from Instrumental Demos by F.I.L.T.H.Y.

Bitwhore Barbie and Stigmata came from two different places in my head, but they’re part of the same breakdown.

Bitwhore Barbie is plastic rage. It’s what happens when you’ve had enough of fake smiles, fake people, and fake expectations. It’s instrumental because no words really captured what I felt when I made it. It’s digital rot—made of chopped-up loops, harsh noise, and broken rhythm. It’s not supposed to make sense. It’s supposed to hit you in the gut, then glitch out and leave. I made it to destroy something perfect.

Stigmata is more personal. Still aggressive, still heavy, but this one hurts in a different way. It’s about carrying pain that’s not visible, wounds people don’t see but still expect you to “get over.” The title came from the idea of suffering like a ritual—something holy and ugly at the same time. Every sound in that track is me trying to translate how it feels to be punished for things I can’t even control. It’s slower, heavier, and more suffocating. I wanted it to feel like dragging chains through concrete.

Both tracks were made in my room, late at night, with way too much distortion and not enough sleep. I didn’t write them to be catchy. I wrote them because I needed to. If you relate to either of them, cool. If not, they weren’t meant for you anyway.

F.I.L.T.H.Y. Is a Nü Metal solo project from Utah, formed in late December of 2024 by Beau Palmer.