growing up by ff00ff
NEO46
i had a pretty rough childhood, and almost every day i dreamt of what my life would be like when i was older. even in elementary school i think i understood time enough to know there was a version of me that already existed, who was living and loving a life outside of the tyranny of parents and the headache of homework. i was eating ice cream for dinner and sleeping in a big canopy bed with my three cats. incredibly, i was right on all accounts. when i wrote this album, i didn't have a theme in mind, and when it was finally finished, i couldn't think of anything that glued everything together. but when i looked more closely, i noticed so much of my recent work has been about acknowledging life for what it is and embracing growth. there is a version of me that still exists, who is dreaming of a life in which they can spend all day working on art, who is surviving abuse and undiagnosed disorders, who is looking to me for guidance and love. i wish i could reach out to them and comfort them. so here is my attempt. this is an album dedicated to little summer: you made it, and it was worth it.
Tracklist
| 1. | sorry | 2:10 |
| 2. | cyber ghost town | 2:10 |
| 3. | i know that i won't be alone | 2:10 |
| 4. | hospital | 1:44 |
| 5. | meds | 2:22 |
| 6. | the cat's gonna getcha | 1:04 |
| 7. | welcome to the circus | 2:08 |
| 8. | taste | 2:54 |
| 9. | we went on a date! | 1:24 |
| 10. | tell me | 1:57 |
| 11. | the beast | 4:46 |
| 12. | it's true | 1:54 |
| 13. | busted | 3:26 |
| 14. | we're still alive | 1:03 |
| 15. | blue screen of life | 4:00 |
| 16. | guess i'll write a song about it | 2:41 |
Videos
Credits
track 8 originally written by David Portner, Noah Lennox, and Brian Weitz (as Animal Collective)
released by neo-detritus in the summer of 2024 - find us online at neodetrit.us
