UNCANNY from UNCANNY by Dusty's My Friend

why did u put that, in the social contract?
why would u ask my name just to ignore me anyway?
why would u pick up the marker and still not try to work harder?
why would u let me stay here? i really want to disappear
enclosed in the corner, squeezed into a tight space
wolves circling the fire, i need to get out of this place
they are bloodthirsty, in ways i’ve never seen
i’m sure they are hungry, and i’m all there is to eat

dance inside the smoke, be engulfed in flames
sing out your smoggy tunes, please let me escape
i used the magic word, tell me why it doesn’t work
i’m in your happy times, does this even rhyme?
this is way darker, than it needs to be
but i am running farther, is this even me?
i’m tired of this, popped balloons, bandages

they will chew me up, and spit out the remains
then they will ask me,
why isn’t this your happy place?

they call me uncanny—
they’re so far from right
because they’ll never know
what is my usual night
i’m being reminded of demons disguised as people
people who had me in caldrons filled with angels
hypnotism and the truest of fakers
i’ll never believe you we’re all already sleepers
so i guess i’ll dream up another nightmare
i guess i’ll clean up the dishes are everywhere

inspired by darkness but only thriving where it’s bright
mediocre, not enough candlelight
i’m tired of not being able to rely on you
i thought you understood me, i guess that isn’t true

i’ll sing until, my throat burns like hell
i’ll scream until, my voice is no longer well
i’ll cry my eyes out, while singing my tiny songs
held up by tiny meanings
all spread out through the coffee shop
you don’t know what i’m saying
well neither do i, truthfully i never do
until i sing these words at night

i’ve written happy songs
mom says not to reveal the sad ones
she doesn’t know
they’re the ones i’m proudest of
she doesn’t know what they mean to me
and that is fair ‘cause i don’t really know either
none of you do and it’s bc you’ve never been
in the same place
i’ll show u my real face
i used to sing about the masks i wear
but i’ve taken them off ‘cause
it’s hard to breathe in there

i just want my friends, yes i scream to be alone
but i’d take it all back if it means i could be home
you know I’m exhausted, get me out of this class
it’s really pointless ‘cause, i know i will never pass
you know I’m exhausted, i’m sad as well
i have so many reasons for this, i’m sick of this hell
i can’t afford the mistakes, though i don’t profit in the first place
find me a rocket ship, i think i need some more space
know i’ll miss you, i’ll miss my music too
but i need some quiet sometimes
i need to watch the sunrise
i need the early surprise, i need the cross go
collect your 200, i need to hit the road
but I know I’m not ready, im unsteady
i always repeat myself, my head is heavy

need a conclusion need to end this somehow
i guess i’ll just make a list, be home by sundown
i don’t care that it sets so early now
i don’t care that you don’t have time to cry out
the messages you need to hear said to you
you used to get the echo, but now it’s dark out

we’re in the cave now
fires dancing around
wolves chasing me out
tripping on the wooden couch
we're in class now
people staring all around
they want me to get out
they already look down
we’re in the studio now
our paint has run out
sound barrier is broken down
let me cry about how
i’m in the dark
i’m falling apart
i need to run and be alone
but i need my friends i need a home
contradictions, hypocrites and
what have i done to myself

i’m stuck in a place
whose name i’ve already said twice
circles are hard to draw, I can’t be precise
yes circles are hard to draw perfectly
yet i’m still repeating what you’ve said to me
you called me uncommon, you’re absolutely right
but this is how i get through the night
you call me uncanny, that’s completely incorrect
but this is how i know that peace will win and fear is dead

my inspirations whisper motivation into my bones
they breathe life into my day they help me know i’m not alone
they know i can be uncanny, but they are uncanny too
they know what that really means
they don’t know what to do
neither do i, but i will fight
fight until i, see the sunrise

i wrote this with dark intentions
but i’m feeling better now
feels so great knowing
how to get up off the ground

call me uncanny, but i will disagree
i am just the right amount
that i need to be happy

• Folk
• calm
• neurodivergent
• simple
• singer-songwriter
• ukulele
• Texas