Exist from UNCANNY by Dusty's My Friend

I write a lot of weird songs
I have a lot of weird dreams
I don't know why I say I have them
When I cannot have them physically
But I experience some weird thoughts
Sometimes they leave me distraught
I promise I have not done anything
To make me question everything
All I've ever done is
Exist inconsistently
All I've ever done is
All I've ever done

I remember the day I unsorted my beads
I remember feeling how I had no one to please
I can sleep in my clothes if I feel like it
I can sing off key and refuse to rhyme

Don't u open that drawer you know its not yours
My vision is warped my heart is washed up on the shore
Covered in sand you try to hold it in your hand
But it burns your skin
You go to protect your kin

You yell there's an alien a monster
A completely deformed Carver
They cut up all the trees and
Call it a casserole
They cant find their arms and
They say they do not starve but
Their body tells a different story
In their heart's a hole

You tell them how you found my nest in the dirt
With a carpet of poison berries,
I lie that it does not hurt
You tell them how my face is the only normal thing
While my legs are oddly arched and
My boney back stings
My neck is longer than your will to live after seeing me
My unibrow will grow up to the ceiling

I write a lot of weird songs
I have a lot of weird dreams
I don't know why I say I have them
When I cannot have them physically
But I experience some weird thoughts
Sometimes they leave me distraught
I promise I have not done anything
To make me question everything
All I've ever done is
Exist inconsistently
All I've ever done is
All I've ever done

I dont have to live for
Anyone but myself
I may be unearthly but
I wont hide on the top shelf
It's hard to feel like
I belong anywhere but
Who actually cares
If everyone stares
It hurts my chest
It makes me remember
That I cannot rest and
The oddness of my being
But who actually cares
I will lie and say I dont
If everyone stares I'll
Pretend its cause I'm on a throne

All I've ever done is
Exist inconsistently
All I've ever done is
Pretend I do not know me
All I've ever done is
Throw my whole self away
All I've ever done I
Will not do today

To continue
To exist in
A world that does not love you
That treats you like a sin
To keep being
Your very own self
In a society that says
To burn the witch and elf
To survive
A world so unkind
Is to be the bravest you that
You could ever be

• Folk
• calm
• neurodivergent
• simple
• singer-songwriter
• ukulele
• Texas