Homesick & Heartbreak from BlackLight Grace by BlackLight Grace

Heartbreak and Homesick (revise)


Verse 1
They think they know Vegas from a weekend binge,
but they never saw the sun crack the Spring Mountain ridge.
Never walked Boulder at 3 AM when the city breathes,
never knew the desert like a language only locals read.
I'm stuck in cities that don't know how to burn,
where people ask me about the Strip when I talk about return—
they don't understand it's not the casinos I miss,
it's the valley holding me like a mother's fist.
Pre-Chorus
You can't explain red rock to someone who's never bled there,
can't describe the sky when you've only seen it secondhand.
They see postcards, I see home—
and I'm dying in this exile, skin and bone.
Chorus
I'm heartbroke and homesick, both diseases with no cure,
one's a ghost in my chest, one's a city I can't return to anymore.
I left my soul in the dust off The Arden Caves,
buried my youth where the locals do drum circles and Raves—
you can't miss what you never loved as land,
but Vegas raised me with the desert's brutal hand.
I'm heartbroke and homesick,
two flavors of the same trick.
Verse 2
I dream in dry heat and monsoon warnings,
wake up to rain that doesn't understand mourning
the way the valley does when summer finally breaks.
These people don't know silence like a desert makes,
don't know the difference between lonely and alone—
out there, solitude is sacrament, here it's just a groan.
I miss the mountains that fence in all our sins,
miss knowing exactly where the real city begins.
Pre-Chorus
And yeah, I left someone there I thought we just needed some space,
but losing them and losing home became the same piece erased .
Now everywhere I go feels like a bad translation—
I'm homesick for a city that's become my devastation.
Chorus
I'm heart broke and homesick, both diseases with no cure,
one's a person I can't be with, one's a city I can't return to anymore.
I left my heart on a Tropicana street corner,
left my name in the dust like a cautionary mourner—
you can't understand what you never had to leave,
but Vegas was my religion and I lost my belief.
I'm heart broke and homesick,
two ghosts in one crucifix.
(Bridge)
Maybe I'm not homesick for the place,
maybe I just miss who I was before I needed to escape.
Before love carved me hollow,
before distance made tomorrow
something I can't swallow—
just another day that's not in Nevada.
(Final Chorus)
I'm heart broke and homesick, twin bullets in my chest,
one fires east to a valley I can't reclaim.
one fires west toward a past that won't let me rest,
I left pieces of myself from the strip to the lake bed
from Summerlin to Henderson, from sorrow to the shame,
Vegas doesn't forget you even when you change your name.
I'm heart broke and homesick,
the only cure is to go back home but what im needing there the most is already gone.
(Outro)
I'm not ready yet, still bleeding in these foreign streets,
still carrying the desert dust beneath my feet.
One day I'll make it back like a prayers been answered,
And What happened back in vegas it still stays there
but for now I'm just homesick and heartbroken —
Still tryin just to soak in...
That What i once called home is no longer an option
But until the day i die my love remains unbroken...

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