Reincarnation from Existential by Detritvs
Tracklist
| 5. | Reincarnation | 2:57 |
Lyrics
How many times have I seen it play out?
The damage silent pain, cut flesh is the shout.
Starting when were teens, depression trauma, like rats
in a cage facing starvation, no going back
Whatever happened happened, leaves us chipped or cracked
and monsters are so strong so the weak we attack
assault our own worth and bodies through intoxication
our mutilated minds offer no hesitation
she was beautiful and only fifteen
but could only view her body as something obscene
I never saw her naked, made love in the dark
looking back her pain still strikes my heart
the years moved on, Ashley pregnant with child
when her boyfriend found her hanging, she couldn't reconcile
with her demons that removed her from friends and family
our petty breakup comments now remembered mournfully
I said some stupid shit, I was so young and dumb
but then under my own demons I almost succumbed
path revealed, climbed from the dark, I was trained to fight
I became a teacher and stretched out to the light
when Amanda and her family stepped in the karate school
she too was fifteen and didn't know what to do
about the demons in her head that told her shes shit
her father was scared he'd find her with wrists slit
Visit her in a hospital let her know shes not alone
and that shitty as we are we can choose to grow
I failed Ashley then but I wont fail now
dental floss patchwork heart that I've sewn
And yeah, maybe its true I didn't save the world
but still hear from a father that I saved his little girl
Yo, all I did was listen in a cold society
and it honored Ashley, her smile, and memory
Never will I say that its gonna be alright
but Im here when you find yourself panicked awake at night
just know I wont quit even if I cant win
I will try to light the world, even if so very dim
