Existential from Existential by Detritvs

Maybe I give in too fast
tow the line, hold fast
slow motion, emotional cap
my well being full of so many gaps

Symptoms morphing with age
too many words, still a blank page
square one, existential squared
desperate, pinned down, my fangs bared

Personality built of contradiction
self-hate propelling discipline and motivation
dangerous game when the shoulder chipped
and never being good enough, of always being fucked with

Train the jitz till I collapse, take Ls and wins
demeanor rarely betraying the headspace that I am in
no natural talents only blessed with a curse
of numbing knowing mediocrity that is the fucking worst

Delete another song, what is there to say?
Cant produce for shit so what goods it anyway?
There was a time perhaps I thought I had an offering
but never part of the cliques, never cared much for the posturing
strung along by deaf ears and muted personalities
fake concern and empathy that rooted deep as trees
another commitment falls away like autumn leaves
compassion so fleeting like breath in the winter breeze

• Alternative
• Cloudrap
• Emo
• Hip-Hop/Rap
• Punk
• pop
• Buffalo