UNIVERSE REFUSES from AUGUST by delikately
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| 7. | UNIVERSE REFUSES | 3:42 |
Lyrics
UNIVERSE REFUSES
by delikately
hmm... mmm...
the sun came up like it always does
i left the house just to remember what my legs were for
i used to think growing up meant knowing what to do
now it just means spending more to feel less
every “i’m okay” doesn’t mean anything
it’s what you say so no one asks twice
am i stuck like this ‘cause it’s who i am
or did i build this version out of habits that never loved me back
mm-hmm...
i keep asking for a sign
like i’d even know what to do with one
thought if the universe gave a shit it would show up
instead i get hours and hours of nothing
and somehow... i take that personally
yeah...
i want to care again
i want to stop mistaking being numb for being healed
i wish i still believed in something
god
or at least the idea of mornings
maybe he hears me and just doesn't answer
yeah
or maybe i stopped believing he ever listened in the first place
did you stay out of it because you trusted me to handle it
or because you saw what i was doing
and didn’t care enough to stop me
mm-hmm...
i keep asking for a sign
like i’d even know what to do with one
thought if the universe gave a shit it would show up
instead i get hours and hours of nothing
and somehow... i take that personally
yeah...
i can’t even blame you
if i saw someone walk into the fire that many times
i’d stop pulling them out too
hmm yeah...
oh
i just need some kind of omen
maybe the signs were there
maybe i was too busy writing my own disaster to read them
and i hate that i keep saying
the universe refuses to interfere
when the truth is
i waited for help instead of helping myself first
