gaslight myself from Midnight Ennui by delikately
Tracklist
| 1. | gaslight myself | 3:26 |
Lyrics
gaslight myself
by delikately
another self-deprecating song
here we go
i write the same lines
again and again
pretending i’m okay
really
i’m just catching up
with who i said i was
i’ve lied so well
yeah
it almost sounds true
i know what you want me to say
i just know you’re not listening.
do i care? i don’t know
is this who i am?
that’s the question.
but i’ll play along
because that’s what i do best
just a little deeper
in my own head
gaslight myself?
yeah i’ve got that part down
i’ll call my own bluff
before anyone else gets the chance.
they’ll ask me how i’m doing
and i’d just have to smile
until it’s so smooth i can’t feel my face
it’s like i’ve worn this mask
so many times
not sure where i end
where it begins
i'm not who i say i am
but i’ve got the best fucking act in town.
do i care? i don’t know
is this who i am? you tell me.
but i’ll play along
because that’s what i do best
just a little deeper
in my own head
gaslight myself?
yeah i’ve got that part down
i’ll call my own bluff
before anyone else gets the chance
hmm
is it crazy to admit?
i think about myself
more than anyone
like yeah
i love thinking
everything’s about me
i’ve gaslit myself
into believing
it’s just part of the act
that none of this
self-obsession is real
yeah
i almost believe it
and it’s too damn good
to let go
so let me keep lying
if it makes me feel better
just a little deeper in my own head
gaslight myself?
yeah i’ve got that part down
i’ll call my own bluff
before anyone else gets the chance
but who’s gonna call me out?
