PTV from Traumatic Bonding by Dahlia Gillespie

I pray God for a drug that will soothe my soul
Some relief for the pains that I must endure
Something pure that will clean all my sins away
And will hide all the horrors until I'm awake

Until I'm awake!

Abuse of body and mind, trading favors for the powder that will keep me sane
Turning tricks for the substance of pale contempt, letting go of the hatred, of the tear and stress
Numb my thoughts and my pity in the absence of dreams, the projection of the child that burns still
All the bandages and blood and the damage done, a machine and a heartbeat and a mind undone!

A darkness lurks around, trapped inside a delusion of unreal desire
Reaching out for a friend that can save me again
Unaware of the truth, in the basement I wait

Still alive even though everyone is dead, walk around in a nightmare from which I can't escape
I'm not the only one, just a victim as well
Hadn't noticed before: I'm the same as them!

I'm the same as them!

And the substance has drained all my hope away
I realize now: I'm one of them!

I'll never wake!

• Metal
• emo
• emocore
• post-hardcore
• screamo
• Valentín Alsina