dead weight by Codex Obscura

i wish that i had your eyes
so i could see what you see in me
i wish that i could be present at all times
flickering in and out of my presence of mind
it would be nice i had another chance
starting over at square one
a little less fucked this time
i'm sick of this shit
i'm sick of making excuses for myself
i want to be there for you
i just want you to know that i love you

over and over repeating in my head
the frustration i sense in you
when i can't wake up
when i can't take a shower
when i just can't smile
when i can't take care of myself
fuck

why in the fuck would i ever want to burden someone else
with the shit that i have in my head?
why do people i don't even know
want to listen to the songs that i make about being alone?
why should anyone fucking support me?
why would anyone give a shit about me?
me?
me?

the view from here is a brick fucking wall
i keep smashing myself against it
my knuckles bleed and deform
the view outside is a black hole
i continue to push but i never get any further

my malnourished frame continues to wither
as time slips through my fingers
and i continue to achieve nothing that i had planned
soon enough i will be nothing but another statistic

bleed

i wish that i had your eyes
so i could see what you see in me
when i sleep 14 hours a week
when i forget to eat
when i can't just fake smile
when i fucking give up

• Deathcore
• Metal
• Technical Deathcore
• deathgrind
• mathcore
• North Carolina