i'm sorry by caetlynn simms

i’m sorry for hurting all those i’ve hurt even when I didn’t mean to hurt you.

i’m sorry for letting myself get carried away and refusing to control myself. 

i’m sorry for not paying attention and saying things out of turn and ruining everything.

i’m sorry for playing the victim just so I can give myself an excuse to not change.

i’m sorry for hating myself and harming myself to say i’m better off dead.

i’m sorry for not showing enough love for myself and belittling myself.

i’m sorry for being mentally ill and not pursuing any help to do something about it.

i’m sorry for being too dense and too relaxed at the wrong times.

i’m sorry for superseding your needs over mine to keep up a façade.

i’m sorry for saying i love you when I know I shouldn’t have. 

i’m sorry for being selfish with my desires when it made you uncomfortable.

i’m sorry for being confused and taking out my angst on you.

i’m sorry for acting neurotic out of a need to be seen.

i’m sorry for feeling like i’ve done nothing but fail. 

i’m sorry for being on a high horse when I had no power on top of it.

i’m sorry for being a background friend only to absorb the laughs and the jokes.
i’m sorry for copying you out of a need to feel like i belonged.

i’m sorry for intruding on every wrong possible time out of a fear of missing out.

i’m sorry for doubting you when you say i am your friend.

i’m sorry again for doubting you when you say i am your friend.
i’m sorry that i broke your trust with me because of my preventable mistakes.
i’m sorry i make mistakes.
i’m sorry i have emotions.
i’m sorry that i want love.

i’m sorry that i want peace.

i’m sorry that i apologize too much.
i’m sorry, i don’t want to hurt anyone anymore.
i’m sorry, but i have nothing
nothing to show for myself outside of my newfound passion.

will you listen? 

will you partake?

will you commune?

will you rest?

will you accept me?

will you trust me?

will you love me?

will you forgive me?


making odd sounds / cool sounds / cold sounds / resonance / landscapes, mountains, oceans, trees, cabins, lakes, snow, all else that comes to memory

the space making is done.. now all I have is my acoustic.. stay tuned for shitty songs..