explosive from sadsquares by ben collins

I'm either empty or explosive
there's no in between
my friends must be busy, real busy
so they can't see how much i'm teetering
and even when I'm awake I feel like I'm sleeping
even when I'm awake I feel like I'm dreaming

but doesn't everyone feel this way
everyone feels just the same
so there's no way to move on
except for ahead
no path to tread on except the one
I'm already walking on

I'm not excited for Christmas
not anticipating Halloween
what's so scary about a man in a mask
when you lived with monsters for centuries
what's so great about a present [parents]
when all you want is someone to notice your presence
or lack of or lack of or lack of [or their lack of]

i spent such a long time broadcasting
distress in all different kinds of language
it's bad to want what you don't have
maybe feelings won't kill you but don't count on that
it's bad to want what you don't have
and the world don't like people like that

• Alternative
• acoustic emo
• dream pop
• idk what im doing but im sad
• lo-fi
• Northampton