friends + family from ENDLESS loop by Automatic Manuel

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh

I haven’t made any new friends or acquaintances i see why, I see why
I haven’t made any new friends or acquaintances I see why, I see why
Too bu-
t-t-t-t

Too busy walking around downtown
No defense for your actions that you caused
Face down, look down
Fake, Santa Claus
Together all of us fuck around
One down, two down
This is how it starts
Since 7
Sincere, going on 6 years
6 years I was in the same boat with them
Float around with no end
Except my terms and conditions
Accept my terms and conditions
That it will always end, it will always end
It will end, it will end, it will end

I am not my mothers friends child
My dad can’t say shit about me now
To his friends I’m an embarrassment
To my friends I’m an embarrassment
I get so irritated
And my family don’t know shit now
They don’t know shit about me now
Nor do my friends or my therapist
I come off as arrogant
I hope that this ain’t permanent

Sit down, sit down, look around
A bunch of other seats around but you
Sat down, sat down
Next to me
First time talking to you through a screen
Your friend is my friend
Am I your enemy?
Am I supposed to be?
I’m living with my best friend
Supposedly
Half the time
My brother don’t bother
Apple falls from the same tree
And then there’s me
Toxic and socially dependent, insecurities
Young child sit alone, nobody bothered me
Procrastinating
Bobbing up and down I’m drowning
My mood swing constantly
When I spread TMI
I go MIA
Until I’m DOA, 7 stories
Lay down bouquets of flowers
I rest in my unheavenly attire-re-re-re

I am not my mothers friends child
My dad can’t say shit about me now
To his friends I’m an embarrassment
To my friends I’m an embarrassment
I get so irritated
And my family don’t know shit now
They don’t know shit about me now
Nor do my friends or my therapist
I come off as arrogant
I hope that this ain’t permanent

My mother’s mom don’t know the real me
My dads mother wants the best for me
I want whats best for me
My aunt want me to succeed
All my cousins living their life successfully
All this don’t mean shit to me

Yeah yeah
Yeah this burden is too much for me
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
This burden is too much for me
Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah this burden is too much for me
Yeah yeah yeah

Woah oh oh oh
This is how I feel, how I feel
This how I feel, just how I feel
Just how I feel, how I feel
This how I feel

Why don’t I
Wake up tomorrow and make my own bed
And clean my own room and
Greet everybody in my home
Dream of days, unreal things
That ill never get to live or realize
Mom, I’m sorry
For not doing what you told me to do
Dad, Please forgive me
I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you
My brother, I’m sorry that I was way too cruel
Way too cruel, way too cruel
Dreams of never ending days that always go on
That go on, that go on

Sorry I’m not who you want me to be
Sorry I couldn’t be what you wanted me to be
Didn’t live up to your assumptions or your fears
Even if I’m wrong I wouldn’t get a thing
Get a thing
I wouldn’t get a thing
Get a thing I-i-i-i

I still feel it, the pain, the memory
Of my last dream was a nightmare
I stay paralyzed
Carve my heart out with a knife
Give it to someone worthy
When I wake up
I just wish I didn’t wake up at all
Not at all
Not at all
I have nothing to lose at all
Not at all
Not at all
Not at all
Not at all

Woah oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh

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